So the Whole30 diet and I were NOT friends after the 30 days. I was THE biggest butthead and made life miserable for those around me. I have determined chocolate and I have such a strong relationship that I can’t get rid of it again!
However I have become sort of a gym freak! I love ending my day with a hard workout!! I am seeing my body continuously changing for the better. I am very proud of myself, which I hardly ever say.
My happiness projects going pretty well. March is the month I am dedicating to my marriage and husband. I feel like I have been trying to be more patient and putting forth more effort to communicate and listen. (What helps the most is that we are communicating on my health as well. Proper dietary health, medication, and vitamins can really change a person!!!)
And although April is my month dedicated to my career, I have been making some major decisions and really talking out some future plans and ideas. Keep your fingers crossed that I can find something to make me happy and fulfill this void I have had for nearly a year.
Hopefully I’ll post more frequently…one can only hope. Lol!
Well, it has been one whole week of my happiness project in full swing. I have to say, I think I’m still missing a few things. I am focusing really hard on my goals for the month but haven’t been experience much happiness. Perhaps it is do to different aspects of my goals.
B and I began the year off with doing the Paleo’s Whole30 challenge. Man, it started out with a bang, but I have clearly slowed on my enthusiasm. For the past few days I have been really angry and unhappy with this challenge. I have not slipped up and refuse to, but I am not living a happy and complete life right now. (Just ask Em, she almost tided me up and forced chocolate down my throat. Lol) But I am going to complete the challenge and I do really hope to no longer need those items I once thought I needed for my survival.
Now, the other obstacle that I face with this challenge is that we need to plan our meals out better and prep them for the week, so this week I am tackling that and mapping them out with directions and all, along with prepping them so through the week we don’t have to use SO much time in preparing our meals. 9:00 is just too late to eat dinner for me.
On a better note, my budget is working well for me so far! I am planning out where I spend my money and how much I am allowed before I go. Like today, I am going to pick up something I have had my eye on and watched till it dropped to over 50% off. And I am planning ahead for next month’s goal by buying a few items I might need then, now, so I don’t go over budget when the time comes.
Soon I will post some pictures from the first day of the challenge and my starting weight. These are items that we needed to do so when we finished we had a comparison. I have never been too concerned with the number on the scale, I just want to like what I see in the mirror and like how I feel.
So today hasn’t been an award winner by far. I know, it’s only early afternoon, how can I be so negative. But after a great workout, which I probably could have done more but ill save that vent to myself, I come home to an attitude. Apparently I am lazy and nagging like a mother. I am worried that 2013 really will be a fresh start, in every aspect.
If that’s the case then I won’t lose myself, I will work hard to grow and improve. (But for now I am falling apart.)
What happened to happily ever after?
With the way I am feeling today after eating so much, I am beyond ready to give up everything. I feel like I could puke all over everything!!!!
So I’m ending my day with TONS of water and a few good books. (None of which are study materials!) Taking a mental break to work on my happiness project!
As you know, I am starting a new adventure in the new year. I am beginning my happiness project!!! I couldn’t be more excited to start this journey. Keep posted to see what I plan for each month.
I can promise now that January will be the 30 day Paleo challenge with B and budgeting my money. I need to get a serious grip on my spending. It has gone off the deep end! Tomorrow we are off to go shopping and begin our lifestyle change with a trip to Whole Foods!!! Then signing up my man for a membership to Lifetime, a place I find pure joy in myself!!! I love the challenge and to push myself.
Keep following because I am going to try and post at least once a day, if not more often. It will all depend on if I need to express myself for clarity.
It’s time for a change, so why not start now????
I am ripping at the seems. I’m having a very hard time holding myself together today. It like I have no heart, or my heart has been snatched right out of my chest.
How did I get here?
What can I do to fix it?